dear diary // its me dupree

So here I am updating a friends tumblr page and I go online and post pics of a well known celebrity, public pics that have been all over the internet for months now. And guess what happens; the reality celebrity contacts my friend and begins to throw a bitch-fit. I wanted to say fuck that crazy bitch and if she doesn't want her pics all over the internet then get the fuck off the television.

I would think Miss Thing has other things to worry about like who is this man going around stating he has had sexual relations with your husband while he was in prison. Or why is your husband no longer living in your home.

People and their priorities. I swear!

Why is it that when a straight person, be it man or woman, questions why a man would want to lay with another man, we (meaning gay men) get up in arms and take offense to them even asking the question?

How dare they, who in the hell do they think they are? It's a question that cuts to our core at our being; not only as gay men but also as men who deserve to be liked, loved and desired.

So why is it, that we as gay men, turn around and ask men who date transexuals...WHY?

I have a friend, I will call him, 'Seven,' who continually asks that question of why them and not him. Now Seven is a very good looking man, 6'0", brown skin, works out daily, nice body, sex is great or so I have been told, nicely trimmed beard, machismo oozing out of his ass, great job and a great person to be around. He has all of that going for himself but when he sees a good looking man with a transexual female he gets up in arms... WHY?

I always try to respond with the politically correct answer and say why not, its not for us to question whom or what a man finds attractive and its insulting to someone's character when you do.

I don't know why some men find transexual girls attractive, its not for me to know. I do know I liked the attention I received when I was living half of my life as 'Brianna.' I always told my friends it was my feminity, poise, grace and that little something extra that caught a man's eye and attraction to me.

Stop asking 'WHY' and just know that you are not everyone's type and that's fine because there are some men out there who only want what you have...what ever that 'something extra' might be.

Today, I woke up. I didn't do my morning prayers. I didn't look for a job. Instead I made a couple of bracelets for a friend. Went out to eat with another friend. Discussed a new job opportunity. Texted some friends and came home and talked to my mom before she went to bed. Oh what a beautiful day!